April 17, 2009

I'm Home, And I Bought You Some Souvenir

assalamualaikum. and good evening, morning, night or whatever condition it is for you right now. it's been so long since i've wrote my last post here, in blogger. and that last post also is the main cause, why did i deleted this blog, i mean, my blog. but nevermind.
now i'm here again. with much passion to write, with much interest to read, and with much pleasure to think and and think, and keep my mind busy, from what used to be a great achievement in my life, and now turned into something that really bothers me alot.

i'm so sorry. especially to heqing, for what happened between both of us, and to my fellow friends, for being silent from all of you, keeping myself away from all of you. yes, maybe i'm quarantining myself. i don't want to be rude to all of you. i don't want to be as emo as you may know me before. yep, i admit it. i am a very unstabled-emotion person. very unstabled. i've tried to change this negative value inside of me, but it seems harder than what i thought to be as easy as breaking a glass. i'm trying hard, really hard. and now i've managed to control it. after such a long time, separating myself from all of you.

my life now. err. if simplified, lets just say, that i walk alot now. ALOT. and i goes to upten almost everynight this week, as well as the lake too. ( guess what i'm doing there, from 8pm to 4.30 am ).

haha. when i read back my own last post, i laughed. i don't know why. but the prospect that i'm loving my laptop more than myself and people around me is a bit selfishness, and err... i can't find the suitable words for it.

ok, i'm new now. much better, i bet so. and i've found my own strength through all these problems and difficulties. and i'm willing, that i can be as close with all of you like before. ahh. so many works to be done. informative speech, MUET tests, tutorials, quizes..hurm, but what can i do, this is life. all of you having it to right now, am i right? oh, i better go and take shower now. its already near the afternoon. XDD

have a nice day, friends. =)

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