Yang Datang Dan Yang Pergi

Semalam merupakan hari terakhir aku berbuka puasa dengan rakan-rakan untuk Ramadhan tahun ni... Mula-mula dalam kepala, ingat nak berbuka puasa kat masjid untuk kali terakhir, alih-alih berbuka dengan mereka... Yang ada semalam, Zulbrodon, Kudin, Imran, Daus Hatta, Kader, Ijat, Peah, Hana, Ira, dengan Ija... Lokasi kami, Village View Restoran... Tempat ni memang dah ada dalam list tempat-tempat-makan-yang-agak-mahal, tapi tak apalah... Bukan selalu, kan?
Nak masuk, kena laa book table dulu... Dan meja sudah pun d'book, tinggal makanan je... Waktu berbuka kami dimulakan dengan kurma dan kuih yang memang dah tersedia di atas meja, sebab makanan-makanan yang berat tak sampai lagi... Panggil waiter macam panggil kucing... lol...
:)

Time makan memang best.... Pass sana, pass sini, tomyam dibedal, sotong goreng kehabisan, telur bungkus lesap ( xcukup la tu ), kangkung tak terusik...( haha, sape yang order? XD )
Bajet seorang RM10, tapi tengok makannya macam RM5 punya bajet.. Takpe, janji dapat berbuka dengan mereka, itu lagi penting... :) Bukan selalu dapat makan ramai-ramai macam tu...
^_^

Dah sudah makan, perut dah terisi, tiba-tiba rancangan baru terkeluar... Mari tengok wayang.. Err, cerita apa yang ada time-time sekarang ni? Ah, belasah jela.... Hehe...

Then aku, ijat, ngn daus tunggu la kader kat PKNS Bangi ( beliau balik rumah, mandi katanya )..
Time tunggu, macam-macam gelagat orang aku dapat observe kat PKNS ni.. Dah memang lumrah kan, bila shopping family, yang bapak mesti bawak anak yang kecik-kecik pegi kat tempat "duduk" kat port-port mana yang terbaik, ( dalam konteks aku semalam, kat pentas... XD ) then lepak la kat situ, dengan anak-anak diberi arahan " Korang main diam-diam kat sini ye, jangan pegi tempat lain pulak", sementara si ibu pulak sibuk cari tudung, cari baju kurung, cari baju melayu, cari songkok, cari itu, cari ini... ( Nanti aku pun akan jadi camtu ke? )

Bila ngan daus, " bro, awek-awek kat sini semua untuk display je ye.. ko xnampak atas kepala diorang, even yang dengan pakwe, ada tulis "For Display Only - Do Not Touch".. memang kita takkan dapat awek lawa-lawa camni... haha... tengok jela.. cuci mata.. lol..." ( bagus sangat la tu, lepas berbuka cuci mata...) -_-" Dan situasi ni berulang lagi masa kitorang kat Alamanda... Main phrase : pergh, cun gila awek tu... dan aku akan jawab : ala, tengok jela... bukan dapat pun...

Tengok wayang pulak... tajuk yang tercalon, ugly truth, final destination, dan ntah apa lagi... alih-alih tengok ugly truth... Mula impression aku, crite ni cam doh je, cam tak best je, cam jiwang je... Then bila dah start tgk, wow, cerita yang bersepah-sepah dengan words macam blow and job, tts, beans and whatsoeve... ( tak boleh bagi adik-adik aku tengok ni... )

Ok, dah takde idea... sekarang memang idea tengah kering, yela, pagi-pagi kan? XD
Selamat Hari Raya Rakan-Rakan... Ampun Maaf Dari Hujung Rambut Sampai Hujung Kaki... Zahir Dan Batin... Jaga diri, jangan sampai tak sempat balik Uniten tercinta ni nanti... :)

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Morning : Better Start With A Laugh

Selamat Pagi!

Mari Pergi Kelas!

Jom Ke Kelas!

Jangan Ponteng Lagi!

Dah Nak Cuti!

Jangan Ponteng Lagi!

^_^

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JJ : Who is the transformers parents?
Rudy : Hm.. Papa and mama prime?
JJ : Nah, that's wrong...
Rudy : Then what?
JJ : Transparents.. Ahahaha...
Rudy : Hahahaha...

Datang Dan Pergi...Bila Nak Kekal?

Assalamualaikum....kepada reader yg bukan Islam tu, selamat petang, tengahari, pagi, atau sejahtera sekalipun...Ok, rasanya aku nak tulis rojak jela kot....bahasa pasar...tengah takde mood nak formal-formal, lepas ketawa tengok Spontan tadi...hehe....

Dah lama sangat aku tak update2 blog ni....rasa cam da tkubur pun ada....Yela, dah semua layan facebook, myspace ( layan lagi ke? ), friendster ( aku da xonline benda ni nk dekat setahun...lol), tagged ( masalah tenet uni10, so xleyh bukak...lol.... ) dan macam2 lagi laman soSial yg pelik2 and ntah hape2 yg makin keluar....err, itu pandangan aku je...sebab makin lama aku rasa benda ni makin kita guna, makin addicted, and makin membuang masa...whoa, seriously, aku ke yg ckp ayat tadi? ( ok2, yg tulis ayat tadi? ).....

Manusia mmg sentiasa nak promote or tonjolkan diri diorang...itu lumrah manusia, sifat manusia...xpayah nak deny....even korang marah ke apa, but please...seriously, no offense about that...aku just cakap....cuma perasaan nak menonjol tu maybe ada yang kurang and lebih, but there will always be that kind of desire in every people's heart....ok, stop merepek pasal benda ni....da lari tajuk da ni....

Ahad ni dah Hari Raya Aidilfitri....dengan izin Tuhan....tapi aku still xde rasa macam nak raya...sebabnya pun still aku xjumpa lagi...tapi xpela...maybe sebab Ramadhan yang mulia ni makin pergi meninggalkan kita...da xde lagi bulan yang pahala berlipat kali ganda untuk tahun ni...and da xde lagi suasana berbuka puasa yang memang cukup nikmat, bila kita berbuka ramai2, makan free ( lol ) cam kat masjid....takpe, andai diizinkan Tuhan, akan ada bulan Ramadhan ni untuk tahun depan pulak....:)

Sejak masuk degree 1st year ni, macam2 dah benda baru aku lalui....currently active with princenetwork community and lowyat.net forumers...ada sape2 kat sini pro2 desktop modder selain toty yang aku tau? meh2 share knowledge...^_^
bila ngan diorang ni, at least ada la jugak rasanya involved in something great, something brilliant....dapat la aku kenal2 mereka2 yang selama ni slalu nampak tapi xpenah tgur sbb xkenal...( sy memang suka tegur orang...sory kalau annoying ) :)

about love life...aaaaa....tatau2...XD
byk da jadi...byk masalah keluar....banyak kenangan manis and pahit, masam and payau yang tercipta....banyak yang aku belajar and upgrade pada diri aku, even rasanya dengan beliau xsampai bape lama...xtau kapel ke x...macam couple, tapi x...macam rapat, tapi rapat lampau2...errr...can someone give that type of relationship a certain label? i mean specific to that type only....thanks ^_^

skang gak aku nak study betul2...( yela tu am )....ah, niat itu penting dalam buat apa2 pun...buat keje tanpa niat, memang susah nak achieve apa2 pun...buat ibadah tanpa niat, nnt kita sndri xtau apa kita buat....jadi niat itu penting, so niat dulu..usahakan mana yang paling mampu...ingat, PALING.....

dah pukul 12:41....skang nk limit paling lambat tido kul 1...stick with that please....
nunyte all....:)
thanks gak to sape2 yang sudi baca post yang ntah hape2 ni....
(", )

Onomatomania : Errrr......

oh.
so i do have onomatomania, which is desire to repeat certain words.
how come i have this obsession. lol.
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-Onomatomania-
It's an obsession with certain words and the repeated intrusion of them into the mind.

Lover's Requiem

it's been kinda weird lately. and i thought i must have done something wrong to the wrong person in the wrong moment. i've said sorry, but they neglect it with so much hatred in me.
days and nights, slipping through the gap carrying big regret within thy heart.

yes, i don't know you.
nor your life either.
yes, i don't hate you.
nor i like you either.

between heart and mind, between love and fake encouragement, between you and me.
i know that i am the first runner up in your dislikes list, and i like it to be that way.
i don't know why my soul hardening real fast in the past few moments, nor i don't even know
why you keep pushing it through the limits.

big lie never ends.
small lie will never lost its way.
days will show its darkness.
while the dark will reveal its shine.

i paste this sorry, so you would be comfort after all these misery. i paste this regret, so you
would be better and never felt the hurt again. i leave you with these memories, so you will remember it like i did. nothing stands forever, and nothing sits long life ever.

xoxoxo -


just expressing out my thoughts in form of words and phrases. heh, i am a troublesome guy, isn't it? always being such emotional and stuff. ^_^_^ nevermind. thanks for reading it by the way.
in case you didn't understand it, just take it as a poem, or scrap essay, or anything that you like. =)

luv

Coming Back From The End

assalamualaikum. and good day to all my friends ( and whoever reading this no matter we know each other or not ). it's so long since my last post. and there's so many things that changed through the time. i don't know where to start. but maybe its better if i start with my current progress in my study. ( suddenly feel like writing a formal english essay ^_^ )

i'm a degree student now. bachelor in electrical and electronic enggineering [Hons.]( do i spell the last word correctly? ). my mom keep asking me "what is Hons?"
i also don't have any idea what it is actually, but maybe that stands for honors.
hah, honor in bachelor program? i hope i can really get that "honor", not just pass the program with fake "honor". err, i mean pass with great pointer. my pointer for the last trimester foundation program was really bad. its not just bad, but novelty and tragically bad. worse, whatever word that fits. 2.3 or actually 2.29. i finally realise that i've been really dumba** back in foundation, and don't even really care about my studies. tell everyone wanna study, but then stuck with downloading this and that. plus mys**ce and tag*ed, most of my free time was spent on surfing these social websites, trying to find new gf. blarh~~~~~ >.<

so now i have to stop these nonsense. yeah, its quite impossible to totally reject all these habit, surfing and wasting my precious time on something stupid. ( i thought i've said this before in older posts ). but i'm trying my best now to get most of my time on my studies. with much more weird subjects like DE and static that coming up next semester, i really have to torture my mind, keep blasting it with anti-wasting-time-homing-missile......

i missed my friends. zulbrodon, shafiq espada, mr ferooq, yuris, wan fallen, hotshot7, arif razwan, poji tank, and few others that i can't remember right now. huhu, my tummy finally release its next hungry-song. can someone tell me how to keep my stomach filled up without eating?
i can't keep on going with my current asset flowing like water pouring out from the tap.
oh, btw my muet results was good. to me, its really good. i got band 4, and thats great. now my mom can stop asking me about these muet-result-thing......

i still didn't take my driving license, and my motorcycle license. don't know when is the right time to take all these. my current budget also doesn't allows me to take those license.
( i'm in merapu mode now )

better stop right now.

i'm in cendi. and the fees *****! ^_^"

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Just A Little Chat With Myself

ok izham. get your head back up again. put all those unnecessary shits aside for a while. err, at least for 4 weeks. than you want to pick it up back, go ahead. now you've got something to taken care of first. wow, you know it already? yeah, its about your final exam. the deadline is less than 3 weeks from now. you wouldn't want it to be too late when you start pushing things back, do you? so get moving! stop messing around, stop thinking about your social life, about girls, about whateve hell it is. those shits you can touch it back after the exam, so keep moving forward. ( drag those shits with you too if you insist to keep those things ). i won't do that if i were you =)

Mother's Day Special Treat

Parents always know what's best for their children. and I'm totally agree with that, even though sometimes their decision clash with ours.
well, to me, certainly there's one thing that my mom and dad wouldn't be wrong with me.

my eating habit.

yesterday I was fasting, continuing my promise to fasting for 10 days in a row. and last day before yesterday, i was breaking my fast with only a drink of skyjuice.
only that, no food.
and the next day, i continue fasting, and it was like " oh, why did I break my fast yesterday without food?" i was so starving, and have to hold on until Maghrib comes in. to hold it, was an issue, and to find something to eat for break fast, was another issue.

then, my mom calls. she said bla bla bla ( so lazy to write the details ) and decided to come and meet me. i told her about my fasting and she was shock. " how can you keep fasting like that? I'm coming to uniten, make sure you don't go anywhere".

so i wait. and when she arrived with my dad, they gave me those food in the picture. hahaha. that means a kenduri. ^_^

2 bungkus of nasi goreng
1 bungkus of fried chicken and an omellete
2 bungkus of doughnuts ( 6 doughnuts each bungkus )
1 bungkus of chicken nuggets ( don't remember how many of them, i just eat it. )
1 packet of choc buns.
1 packet of cookies.
1.5 litre bottle of sarsi with ice ready. XDD
and err..... i don't remember.
haha

I LOVE YOU MOM AND DAD!!!^_^
WISH YOU LONG LIFE AND HAPPY ALWAYS~

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Balik Kampung Lagi Best

saja bagi semak post nih. X)

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"Papa, Nanti Bacakan Ina Kuat - kuat Ye".

Malam itu saya benar-benar sibuk. Selepas solat Isyak dan menikmati hidangan, saya terus ke meja tulis, mahu menyiapkan kertas kerja yang akan saya bentangkan pada mesyuarat tiga hari akan datang.

Baru nak mula, anak tunggal saya Serena 6, tiba-tiba datang menghampiri. Dan membawa sebuah buku. Saya kerling nampak dia tersengih-sengih manja. Begitulah dia, kalau ada sesuatu yang dimahukannya, dia akan
bersikap terlalu manja.

“Papa? bacakan buku cerita ni. Bagus tau! cerita pari-pari, Ina nak dengar,” kata Serena menghulurkan buku bergambar itu pada saya.

“Buku baru ya?” saya bertanya berbasa basi tanpa menoleh, sekadar melayan. Serena mengangguk lantas memberitahu buku itu dibelinya pagi tadi.

“Papa sibuk, lain kali boleh tak?” saya memujuk. Serena memuncung, memperjelaskan rasa kecewanya, tapi saya benar-benar sibuk. “Bolehlah Papa?..sekejap saja. Ceritanya sedap?.” Rengek Serena enggan mengalah.
“Kan papa kata sibuk! Suruh mama baca?..” “Mama basuh pinggan. Alaaa? bacalah, papa!” Serena merengek sambil menghentak-hentak kakinya ke lantai. Nyata dia tidak mahu mengalah.

“BUDAK INI?..!!!” Tak reti bahasa ke. Pergi sana!!!!” saya jerkah permata hati saya itu. Serena panik. Dia terperanjat sungguh kerana tidak menyangka saya bertindak sejauh itu. Nampak jelas matanya sedikit berkaca, lalu dia beredar sayu. Dalam nada sebak, dengan muka yang sebek, Serena beredar sambil menoleh ke arah saya. Dalam suara tersekat-sekat dia bersuara, “Nanti papa bacakan kuat-kuat cerita ini kat Ina, ya papa!”

Saya hanya memandang tajam ke arahnya. Sebaik tiba di pintu bilik dia menjeling saya, kali ini saya mengangguk. Masa terus berlalu,seminggu, dua minggu namun kesibukan saya semakin bertambah. Setiap kali pulang, Serena tidak merengek minta dibaca cerita pari-pari itu, namun tangannya tak lepas memegang buku itu. Mungkin juga dia faham saya terlalu sibuk.

Pada minggu berikutnya sedang saya, isteri dan Serena menikmati sarapan bersama, saya perhatikan buku itu masih dipegangnya. “Mama dah baca, seronok papa,” kata Serena.

Saya mengangguk sambil tersenyum. “Bila papa nak bacakan?” tiba-tiba Serena bertanya. “Mama dah bacakan, okeylah tu!” Nampak wajahnya terkuncam. Saya terus menyuap makanan. “Mama baca perlahan. Nanti papa bacakan kuat-kuat ya! katanya.

Saya mengangguk.

Selesai makan saya mencapai akhbar. Lembar demi lembar saya tatapi. Tidak terfikir untuk menunaikan impian Serena. Tiba-tiba terdengar bunyi suatu dentuman yang cukup kuat di luar. Konsentrasi saya cuma terganggu
seketika, sebelum kembali memusatkan perhatian ke dada akhbar. Tiba-tiba pintu pagar rumah digegar, saya segera menjenguk. Jiran-jiran mengatakan Serena dilanggar kereta. Saya panik, sempat berfikir, bila pulak dia keluar? Tadi ada kat dapur. Saya memekik memanggil isteri sebelum meluru ke lokasi kemalangan. Sungguh kabar itu benar, Serena terkulai diribaan seorang jiran yang sedang memberi bantuan.

Saya terus pangku anak saya, masuk ke kereta jiran yang sedia memecut ke hospital. Darah membasahi pakaian Serena. Nafasnya sesak. Isteri meraung sekuat hatinya.

“Ina?! Ina?..! Inaaaaaaa!!!” saya memanggil-manggil perlahan namanya dipangkal telinga Serena yang berada dalam pangkuan. Tatkala itu nafasnya tersekat-sekat. “Papa? mama..Ina takut. Ina sayang papa, ina sayang mama, Ina tak nak mati!” bersuara Serena antara dengar dan tidak sambil membuka matanya yang dipenuhi darah, saya kesat darah itu dengan tisu. Namun sekadar cuma. Darah kembali memenuhi wajahnya. Tangisan kuat isteri saya membuatkan jiran yang memandu terus memecut. Di hospital, Serena di tempatkan di bilik ICU ekoran keparahan kecederaannya. Masuk hari kedua, keadaan Serena tak berubah. Dia masih tidak sedarkan diri dan terpaksa bernafas menggunakan respirator.

Itulah saatnya saya merasa cukup bersalah. Lalu petang itu, saya bacakan cerita pari-pari dalam suara yang kuat tetapi tersekat-sekat di sisi katil Serena. Semakin kuat saya membaca, semakin merumbai air mata. Kekesalan berlabuh, tapi segalanya telah musnah. Mungkin Serena tidak dapat mendengar jalan cerita yang sangat diminatinya itu. Keesokan harinya, saya bacakan sekali lagi, masih dalam nada suara yang kuat. Kemudian setiap hari saya bacakan cerita itu ditelinga Serena, sementara isteri saya tak henti-henti menangis. Dia mungkin terlalu marah dan
kesal dengan tindakan saya terhadap Serena sejak seminggu yang lalu.

Masuk hari ketujuh, sebaik saya mula membaca, Serena tiba-tiba membuka matanya perlahan-lahan. Saya nampak terlalu sukar untuk dia melakukan. Bacaan saya terhenti, Air mata merembes dan saya usap-usap kepalanya.

Beberapa ketika kemudian, Serena memejamkan semula matanya, pejam untuk selama-lamanya. Saya seperti terdengar suara Serena mengucapkan terima kasih kerana membacakan cerita itu padanya.

“Papa?? nanti bacakan cerita ini kuat-kuat pada Ina ya?” kata-kata Serena masih terngiang-ngiang di telinga saya sehingga ke hari ini, walau setahun berlalu.

Hingga kini saya tertanya-tanya, apakah sedikit perhatian yang diperlukan oleh seorang anak terlalu mahal untuk diberikan oleh seorang lelaki yang bergelar ayah? Saya tidak dapat menjawap, selain air mata yang tumpah.

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